Vancouver

This will be one of those posts where I'm torn between ages and times in my life.    Went to Vancouver with visions of exploring,  getting some creative juices running,  and just getting out and about exploring  BC.       We've done Vancouver before and spent a month living there when Ciara was 3 and Hannah about 4 months.     It was easy to just explore and entertain them.   They were little.   Nap time in the stroller  I and a cocktail while they cleaned the room,  it felt like an adventure.   Now.....   well my vision didn't include 3 kids.   This is when I wanted to be just Eric and I again before kids.   Strolling,   spending money only on a coffee and neat pastry.    Looking at all the shops and dreaming of maybe buying this and that.   Trying on clothes that you could never afford (when you are 20ish) 
Now though we have 3 kids that say I want I want every 3 minutes.   Trying to teach them that the next store has different things.   The next stall has different food.   Just lets look at it all choose our favourite and come back to it.   Yah..... that worked!  It didn't sink it.    And though I was happy that they were all excited and running around.  Wide eyed looking at all the neat things, that is what I wanted from this weekend.   I was also angry because this was suppose to be about me!!!  My birthday.   I make their days.  Even Eric's a big day.   Favourite meal,   balloons,  presents,   etc etc.    So yes this is selfish of me to think that to expect that but I wanted that too.   I wanted to try on expensive Fluevog shoes that I can afford now,   with out everyone rolling their eyes.   I didn't want to hear I want every 3 minutes.   I wanted to get a new outfit.   I wanted more then just cake on my day.   (yes you have read right I didn't get presents!!!)  
From past experience just in Kamloops I know I can't take them with me if I want to just get a bra and grocery shopping well...      So why did I expect differently this time.   Is this just what happens?   That mom never gets an all about her day on her birthday anymore???      Or is just this family?  

I don't know but even though 40 didn't go as it did in my head.    Getting out and away from Kamloops for the weekend,   eating some wonderful food (well the extra 8 lbs it's just water I could do without!),   and feeling creative again was worth it.